Fed up with myself

I am on the wagon. I guess that is as good a start as any. I am drastically cutting back on my unneeded eating time wasting electronic indulgences. I have recently realized that I have just been wandering around from one digitalized distraction to another while stuffing my face without realizing I am wasting my whole day. I am back to my "Weigh Down" mentality. I started Wednesday and I already dropped 5 lbs of what I can only assume was water weight. The irony is that part of my reclaiming my life plan is that I put a glass of water in the fridge. When I open the fridge, I see the glass and it triggers my brain to think before I eat. If I am eating to entertain or coddle myself, I take a drink and close the fridge. I also have resigned myself to posting my weight on our home organizing Yahoo group when it changes...either way. I only ever weigh myself at my mil's house since she has a scale and I don't. This helps because I don't obsess about it. I have recommitted to re-claiming my life. The last 2 years, we didn't even put up our Christmas decorations because the clutter deterred me from the attempt. I am not going to let that happen this year. My challenge to myself is this: Let's see if I can get to the point that I can invite Dad for Christmas without cringing! Having aired these plans outside of my own head should elevate my feeling of accountablity.